if only...

i don't feel good, you know, feeling kinda lonesome,i am just contemplating as people come and go indifferent as to what's happening around them....i imagine myself sitting in a corner people dressing in grey just pass beofre me and even don't take the time to look at me,smoke,alcohol,dark atmosphere and indifferent faces as if they were carved in the stone...afaid, i hung my head,murmuring words,i am praying...i remember my grandmother and the stories she used to tell me, and the lullabies ofcourse...i long for the hugs and her encouraging words that said : don't lose your courage, god will help us for sure,....god will help us, if only.....